Harry Tubman once said that "Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world."
Dreams are meant to be lived. For as long as I can remember, I've experienced dreams every time I've slept. Those these dreams change each night, but the ones I have during the day never falter. Although at this critical time in my life I have no idea what I plan on doing with my life, I do hope that some of my dreams will be carried out.
With that being said, and for that reason exactly, I've decided that it's in my best interest to go home. I have not decided when the exact time will be, either this May or Decemeber, I do think that it's the right choice. I think that in moving away from home, which I do agree is something that everyone needs to do at least one time, I've realized how many incredible opportunities that I have back home. Before coming down here, I sold myself short and my home short. I had some amazing offers at home and I know that they're still waiting for me, but I guess that I sold them short and brushed them off because I though they were good offers soley for my hometown/area, not compared to the world. In reality, I realize now that they were just incredible offers regardless of area.
Not only are the opportunities great, I do miss my family. I would be lying if I said that they aren't a factor. They're a major factor. I know that they want what's best for me and support me no matter what. I also realize that they will be there when I return, whenever that is. I do think that as I struggle to find my place in the world and to embrace my talents and dreams, it would so rewarding and comforting to have them by my side, helping me and guiding me on my way.
My horses are another huge reason that I would like to move home. With 5 horses waiting on me, it's tough for me to be 1000 miles away and not adequately able to take care of them. Plus, I came here to embrace my passion for horses and barrel racing; it's not happening here yet. Not that it can't but it just hasn't yet. And school is tough which means that I need to focus more on my classes, leaving me with less time for horses and other extracurricular activities.
For whatever other reasons, I'm moving home. I still have not decided whether I'll move home in May after classes or in Decemeber, when judging is finished. I love judging, it's a passion of mine. I just am not sure if it's worth moving back here for 5 months. It's not that this place is terrible, in fact it's a great school, I just don't fit here. I don't think that this is where I'm meant to be. Five months is a long time to be alone, or at least lonely feeling, and to be in a place where I don't think I belong. We'll see what will happen but I've got a bunch of people to discuss this with.
"Dreams are today's answers for tomorrow's questions." Edgar Cayce
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